40 days and counting...

We got engaged two and a half months ago. (The picture is from right after it happened)

AND!! ONLY!!

40 days until we're officially Lt. and Mrs. =)

I'm really excited. And not motivated at all to do anything even remotely related to school. I don't even know if I want to take a maymester class, even though Aaron and I will both be up here, I just don't know that I am motivated to do it. But on the other hand, it would be a good idea to go ahead and get it out of the way since we both WILL be up here. But I feel like it will be too hard to stay motivated knowing that in two weeks from then we will be getting married. And I'll need to go home at least once before then to get our marriage license and take care of cake/food stuff. Ah. I just don't know what to do. I need an extra me to take my class for me and then I can just do wedding stuff.

I'm going stir crazy though. Aaron is in the field all week and I won't be able to talk to him until Friday. That's the hardest part, not being able to talk to him. While he's in Iraq, I think I can get over the not seeing him part if I can at least talk to him every day, or every other day. It's too hard not to talk to him about stuff going on. Like I have to wait until Friday to talk to him about my maymester class stuff...and I also have to wait until Friday for us to determine a date when we can go home to get our marriage license. And I also have to tell him that I didn't get football tickets because I wanted to save money, and most likely wouldn't go to many anyways. All stuff I wish I could consult with him about now.

Oh well. It'll all work out. June 1, 2008 will be here in no time and I will be married to THE most amazing man in the world. What's there to complain about? (except for having to study for my purchaser behavior test tomorrow...boo)

I have my moments....

I think we all do. Yesterday was my day to have a moment...to be angry...

I'm not motivated to do anything school related at the moment. I should be studying for my test tomorrow, but I have no desire or motivation to do so and I don't care. I did so well on my first test and marketing stuff comes naturally to me...haha maybe not so much tomorrow during my test.

Aaron's deployment is at the forefront of my mind constantly. I'm trying to exhaust every available resource that I can, and find people who are willing to help me. I'm new to this whole Army wife thing...or at least in 44 days I will be (but who's counting??). I want to do as much as I can to help Aaron, and I'm sure he knows that...probably because he's the only one who reads my blog...maybe? haha

I'm hoping that he likes his brigade and can make friends (I sound like my mom on my first day of kindergarten--Love you mom!!). I'm sure he will stray on the young side of the group, but I could be totally wrong in that assumption.

I dunno--I guess now I want some guidance. I'm young, I'm new at this...I'll take all the advice I can get with open arms. I want to make friends with his brigade buddies wives. It's like the cool kids club at school that you're not apart of (yet) and want to be so badly...but I guess I'll have my turn soon enough...

Maybe it's silly...I dunno...
Aaron's excited...to serve
I'm excited...to meet new people from all walks of life

But I'm also proud of my soldier for serving his country as well as the rest of the soldiers that risk their lives to protect my freedoms....for that I will always be grateful

But on a completely unrelated note..."our" (okay Aaron's) dog...but really our dog, Chuck, was a little tired after all the festivities this past weekend and passed out on my mom......hehe
(make sure the volume is up a bit)

2 tests, 2 finals, & 2 presentations until it's over

My week has been any and everything less than great. I've been stressed trying to get projects done and finding time to study for tests. There are 2 1/2 weeks left in school and they can't come soon enough. But at the same time, I have so much to do between now and then. I had a test today, and I finished up a project that's due Thursday so that I could study for a test I have on Thursday.

I went to study with a friend of mine, and we came across some questions. Our professor has always told us that if we had questions to never hesitate to call him. So I did. Well when we finally were able to get in touch with each other, and I asked my questions, I immediately regretted my decision to call. My professor who is so nice in class, cares about his students and their concerns, was so rude to me and made me feel dumb. I just wanted clarification on two points because there was a lot of information detailed in both questions and I wanted to make sure I was on the right track with my thinking. Well instead my professor made me feel dumb for having questions, and solidified my feelings of never calling again with a question. He told me to pick what I thought was important and study that. Well it doesn't matter what I think is important, I'm not the one who wrote the test, he is. So going through 5 pages worth of information and picking out what's important to me, knowing it might not be important to my professor to test me on seems like a waste of time.

On top of all that, my professor tells me not to worry. He's "sure [I] have other things on my mind right now, and [am] pretty busy." Really? It's not enough that I have a bunch of school stuff to do between now and the next two weeks, I also have a wedding to plan, a new dress to find, invitations to be sent out (thank the good Lord my mom is doing that), a cake to pick out, figure out what food to serve, pray for Aaron to come back from Iraq safe & sound, and in one piece, all while preparing for his upcoming deployment....it's a bit much right now, but I don't expect that anyone knows what kind of stress I'm going through and that's OK. I don't handle stress like most people and it effects me differently than most people. I don't like to talk about it much, I'm better at writing it out, because talking only makes me more frustrated and stressed. But I guess I work best under stress and it motivates me to get stuff done because at the end of the big long stress tunnel is a day where I can do nothing but lay in bed and watch TV.

Oh how I wish that day was tomorrow....

Or better yet, I wish I could fast forward to a year from now--then I'd be done with school, have my real estate license, and my then husband will be on his way back from Iraq.

C'mon Summer 2009....

Life is known for throwing curve balls

Well, in my attempt to keep my sanity through out this army wife process (and the occasional "study" break) I thought I would post my thoughts for all to see. I don't know how consistent I will be, but hopefully I keep up.

I've been trying to get through school at OU and graduate in December. Two months ago, my now fiance' Aaron proposed to me. So I've been in the middle of my 1st semester as a senior and trying to plan a wedding at the same time. I got the venue. I got the dress. It was coming together. Then Friday night, Aaron got a phone call from one of his brigade commanders.

This is my curve ball.

Aaron will be deploying shortly after he reports to Ft. Hood in the middle of June. His tour will be roughly a year. This means that instead of planning for our wedding in December, we are now getting married in 49 days (Not that I'm counting or anything).

We decided to go ahead and get married June 1, 2008 before he leaves in a small ceremony in my backyard. When he gets back in 2009 we still plan on having a big ceremony. It's hard to believe that in a few months I will be married and my husband will be gone to Iraq to protect my freedom. It's hard to believe that for a year I won't be able to take the little things for granted anymore...we can't spend Saturday curled up on the couch watching TV all day. We can't go to "cool shit" on the weekends (as he has been advised to do to keep our relationship interesting). I guess it won't be as bad as it sounds. For most of Aaron's tour, I will be finishing up school and then moving back down to Texas to be with friends and family.

Of course I cried a lot on Friday, and it's still all setting in. It won't be the last time I cry either, but I just have to remember to have faith. And then pray for Aaron's safety...and my sanity....