2 tests, 2 finals, & 2 presentations until it's over

My week has been any and everything less than great. I've been stressed trying to get projects done and finding time to study for tests. There are 2 1/2 weeks left in school and they can't come soon enough. But at the same time, I have so much to do between now and then. I had a test today, and I finished up a project that's due Thursday so that I could study for a test I have on Thursday.

I went to study with a friend of mine, and we came across some questions. Our professor has always told us that if we had questions to never hesitate to call him. So I did. Well when we finally were able to get in touch with each other, and I asked my questions, I immediately regretted my decision to call. My professor who is so nice in class, cares about his students and their concerns, was so rude to me and made me feel dumb. I just wanted clarification on two points because there was a lot of information detailed in both questions and I wanted to make sure I was on the right track with my thinking. Well instead my professor made me feel dumb for having questions, and solidified my feelings of never calling again with a question. He told me to pick what I thought was important and study that. Well it doesn't matter what I think is important, I'm not the one who wrote the test, he is. So going through 5 pages worth of information and picking out what's important to me, knowing it might not be important to my professor to test me on seems like a waste of time.

On top of all that, my professor tells me not to worry. He's "sure [I] have other things on my mind right now, and [am] pretty busy." Really? It's not enough that I have a bunch of school stuff to do between now and the next two weeks, I also have a wedding to plan, a new dress to find, invitations to be sent out (thank the good Lord my mom is doing that), a cake to pick out, figure out what food to serve, pray for Aaron to come back from Iraq safe & sound, and in one piece, all while preparing for his upcoming deployment....it's a bit much right now, but I don't expect that anyone knows what kind of stress I'm going through and that's OK. I don't handle stress like most people and it effects me differently than most people. I don't like to talk about it much, I'm better at writing it out, because talking only makes me more frustrated and stressed. But I guess I work best under stress and it motivates me to get stuff done because at the end of the big long stress tunnel is a day where I can do nothing but lay in bed and watch TV.

Oh how I wish that day was tomorrow....

Or better yet, I wish I could fast forward to a year from now--then I'd be done with school, have my real estate license, and my then husband will be on his way back from Iraq.

C'mon Summer 2009....